Thursday, December 19, 2013
Why Don't You Love ME?
"You can't force someone to love you; all you can do is become someone who can be loved; the rest is up the them. " There's only one thing in the world that's better than being loved, and that is loving someone. It's taken me six long months to figure that out, but by George I've got it! I had the opportunity last night to get some closure..............finally! Ever since I watched him walk out the door, I've wondered what I could have done to make him love me. I've wondered what was wrong with me that he didn't love me. I couldn't move completely forward because I was too busy trying to figure out why this didn't work. Well.......I finally built up enough nerve to ask and the truth is, his answer surprised me. He reaffirmed my belief that men know sooner than they let on what they want from you. Whether it's a fling or a lifetime they know. In my case, he said he knew that it wasn't a lifetime, but it was more than a fling. He just wanted to enjoy what it was while it lasted. He said that there was nothing wrong with me at all. What I realized in this instant was how right he was. Too many times we walk around kicking ourselves feeling like a loser when in reality you're gaining. I was losing me everyday I remained in that situation thinking that it would magically change. Even after he was gone, I was losing me wondering how I could get him back. I needed that closure so I could finally stop asking myself, do I? And let this man, the right man know that I do. "Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart. "